The God You Seek . . .

     Life's very different now. When I, Doug McMillan, was a seeker there was a restlessness here. I was the seeker. Even when I thought I was an enlightened person, still, the restlessness remained. It, the seeker, sat on top of being and suffocated the life out of...

There are these memories, naturally, of a lifetime of seeking (and that's not a problem  but then again nothing is). Now there is nothing to seek, and everything simply unfolds as is, and it's all as it is meant to be - and that's it. Nothing special - nothing; just nothingness unfolding as this; but this, as is, is different from anything the individualised person can comprehend. 

Sounds pretty boring, right? Actually, as boring as I've managed to make it sound (but only to the excitable personality), it is neither boring nor exciting. I don't get excited - why? Well, there is no I here to get bored - or excited, there never was one - all there was was an illusion, or a notion - an attachment to the idea of individuality.

So, Doug McMillan was seeking truth and a greater reality, even meaning and purpose - and that appeared to be Doug's quest, to seek purpose - that was his game in the game of life. Not everyone shares in that game, some never seek, many do, but not everyone. Some seek without having an inkling that that's what they are doing. They seek a greater reality, or purpose and meaning through sex, sport, success, materialism or some other attachment without knowing WTF they're doing: Each of them is a person. 

Only the person, the individual, seemingly separate and apart from other individual persons and their own reality, can feel restless and frustrated. The seeker is the person, is an individual, is separate and apart from others and separate from their reality as being. Separation and individuality, that is the game.

God knows why. God? What God? And why a capital letter? God knows . . . 

   The seeker, the separate individuated person, can perceive that something is missing - hence the seeking, but it can-Not quite put its finger on what it is - therefore, God knows why, it creates a separate God; something greater than itself (as individuated personality), and something to cling to - hope! One hopes this is making sense, but God knows why...

Mankind's God is a substitute for the real thing. 

"The real thing?" 

Yes, being, presence, oneness or you before being raped and thus possessed by individuated personality, are already the very God you Seek.